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Why am I posting this? More importantly, why are you reading this?

News: China says smoking is cool

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Here's something you may not have known; not only is the Chinese government not giving a shit about human rights or people allowing to express their own unique opinion, but they also own 99% of the ciggarette companies in the country and advertise them as being "good for you" and wonderful things.

Link: In China, cigarettes are a kind of miracle drug

The good news about this is that a Canadian doctor dude is over there trying to tell them the truth. Hopefully he dosen't get put in jail for that.

Prozac: Day Three

During the morning when I was just about to drift into consciousness but was still asleep, I began to have very vivid dreams. Not full dreams, but images and moments, like when you flip through the channels quickly. The last time this happened to me was probably 2 years ago. I love it when this happens. It’s always cool when your subconscious decides to step up and become the headliner for a ten minutes.

This time, I dreamed of a blue bus. I don’t remember dreaming of something that had a distinct colour before. It sounds cheesy to say that I dreamed in colour for the first time, but that is really what I think happened. It was a bus and it was very far away, but I could see it very clearly and it was this amazing blue colour. I can still see it.

I really felt different today. I felt good. Calm. With purpose. Clear. Actually it was such an odd and new feeling, I actually didn’t like it because it was confusing the hell out of me! This is not supposed to happen. Why do I feel good? I shouldn’t feel good, my life sucks. It takes weeks for anti-depressants to take effect. I’ve only been on this stuff for three days and it’s only 10 measly milligrams. I feel good. According to what I’ve read so far, shouldn’t I be plotting a bloodletting at this point? What the hell?

I went to the library and found a book called “Prozac – a Diary” written by Lauren Slater and I got home and started reading. 20 pages into it, it became a great book. One hour into it, I realized that I was lying on a couch in a basement reading a book. This was not good enough. I should go out. I should go to a park and read this while sitting under a big tree and drink bottled water and smoke. I should meet up with a friend afterwards and chill for a bit before going home for something to eat.

So, that’s what I did.

This shouldn’t be happening. It’s only been three fucking days… The suspense is killing me!

Prozac: Old History

I have always been a person that seems always “down” or “sad” to everyone, even when I was very little. Four years ago, this depressive state surfaced for some reason and maybe it was worse than normal or maybe I was just sick and tired of going through these “cycles” of happy/unhappy times every month or so. I ended up being able to surprise myself by actually getting enough courage to go see my doctor and telling him about it. After a talk with my doctor about my state of mind and mood and other uncomfortable things you don’t talk about to someone you barely know, he prescribed me a thing called “Remeron”. They were little orange pills and they did nothing for me. Remeron sucked, as least for me.

I returned to the Doctor and let him know about my feelings about Remeron and how it’s effects were strangely similar to M&m’s and we moved on to the next attempt at hitting the bull’s-eye; Serzone. They were big orange pills and they did nothing as well, but I kept taking them for about six months. I can’t remember why I stopped taking it. I think I got tired of going to the clinic to have my blood tested every month, just in case. (Serzone, by the way, has since been taken off the market here in Canada due to it causing liver damage. Good thing I stopped taking it when I did, I guess.)

Now we go to current issues. This time my doctor and I are playing in the big leagues. Prozac is what’s on the menu for this attempt at the bull’s-eye and I have some really mixed feelings about this most famous of happy pills. I am excited about having the opportunity to test the most popular anti-depressant in the world on my mind, but I am also very skeptical and a little worried about what it might do to me.

According to stuff I have read in the past, some dude started taking Prozac and two days later he had killed his wife and himself. In another report that’s quite famous (sadly I have no links yet to this story. Hopefully later), a retired man and his wife moved to Hawaii and he was prescribed Prozac for stress and anxiety. 2 weeks later both him and his wife were dead. Murder/suicide action. There’s actually hundreds of documented cases of people taking Prozac that have begun having irrational “self destructive” thoughts. So, I am going to be careful and watch my mind very very closely.

News: I want to have sex with Katie Holmes in intresting ways

This just in! Catholic hot chick with the brain of a dog converts to Scientology after recieving specific instructions from her boyfriend about how it can save her from paying so much when it comes to tax time. CNN reporting;

News link to CNN (this link is not working. Fuck you, Firefox extentions, and your cruel ways!)

Zenu would be so proud.

News: Boise schools owe grad a trip to Hawaii

"The way Jerry Squires sees it, the Boise School District and others owe his stepdaughter a $2,300, three-day trip to Hawaii for two to pick out a lei valued at about $40.

Squires, his wife, Cheryl, and his stepdaughter, Trisha Walker, have filed a suit in 4th District Small Claims Court for $2,300 after school authorities blocked Walker from wearing a silk lei during her Borah High School graduation in May 2004."

Sounds reasonable, but how about this instead; shut the fuck up!

News link:The Idaho Statesman

Instamatic

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I have no idea why these 4 pictures are amazingly funny, but they are. According to the tag on the photos, they are from the-op, which I have never heard of, but I still link here because I am cool like that.

News Link - Shot Pizza Man Finishes Deliveries

Testing my new format with this hot "News Link" idea. How odd! A pizza delivery man gets shot in the fucking ass and keeps giving four more tasty and hot pizza pies to hungry college kids before going to the hospital! How odd!

This is being the news link:Shot Pizza Man Finishes Deliveries

Two Inch Computer Square Anyone?

"T-Engine and NEC developed these computers and put the on display at Japan's TRONSHOW 2004. The dimensions of the tiny unit are 52mm(just over 2") by 52mm by 45mm, weight 165 grams(5.8oz). In the computer is used MIPS processor NEC VR5701 clocked at 400 MHz, 64 MB or 128 MB of memory. T-Cube also has slot for Compact Flash memory, two USB 1.1 ports, RS-232C, Ethernet adapter, audio input and output. Can display resolution up to 1280x1024. it uses it's own custom OS T-kernel based on T-Shell. Comes with internet browser, text editor, graphic editor, etc. The T-Cube goes on sale in March of 2004."

Looks like it's got no hard drive and uses only flash cards for storage. Not sure why it's only got USB 1.1 (power comsumption?). Anyway, it's brand new and totally blew me away at how amazingly small it is (the cords take up more room on your desk than this thing!):